Tuesday is my birthday, I'm going to turn 19... I am not even excited about it because I know this year it's gonna be hard, on the 24th of december at the end of the year and at Christmas Eve there were problems in my family, it was so awful that it made me cry... The half of my family is angry and won't talk to each other, and they all included me in this story, noone talks to me anymore, but the truth is I don't have anything to do with it... I know that I won't have an "Happy birthday" from anyone except from my friends, but to me my family is really important, mostly because I don't have any brother or sister, and my father won't even talk to me and isn't here for my birthdays since I am 10..Just when I think about it I feel like crying... Tuesday I'm going to send lots of tweets to Gaga, hoping that she'll notice it and answer me, that would be the only thing that could cheer me up, and most importantly that would be my only gift.