please, let me help sum1 b4 it's 2 late; taken 2 japan when i was 2, not my culture, brought back 2 the US 4 years later where kids made fun of me bcause i was american and couldn't speak english; braces, glasses, bad acne; early puberty made me give up gymnastics when i was being groomed 4 the olympics, body no longer streamlined; parents wouldn't let me focus on nething but academics; girls shunned me and called me slut even tho 2 this day i'm still a virgin, never been kissed; guys who called me ugly the day b4 were trying 2 cop a feel; sisters r beauty queens, i'm the ugly girl, all eyes slide over me - even when i try by putting on make-up or curling my hair, no1 notices; girls snicker about my wide hips and big thighs, guys say i have an ugly face; no 1 cares, no 1 is close; i can't b what my parents want, it's not my life; i don't want 2 die but i'm not living; tired of smiling, my face feels like it will crack; no joy, no laughter, only tears at this point; lady gaga helped me hold on 2 more years; i have tix 2 the ball on 1-31 but i can't wait on the queen; ana was my only friend, my family made me give her up thinking they were helping me; i am truly alone and don't see it changing; i don't want to disappoint or hurt my family nemore; please, please, PLEASE listen to lady gaga while you're young - it's so hard to change self-perception after so long; if u have a dream, don't let ne1 take it from u, even if it takes u from them; if u find sum1 who truly understands u, who gets u, NEVER let them go. little monsters are THE best.