His name is Alex. He goes by bensmonster here. We are in a 9 hour time difference, but we really love each other and skype whenever we can for an hour or more. I noticed he wasn't on twitter for 3 weeks, or here. In addition, my Internet was faulty so I hardly have had Internet lately. With my anxiety issues, I assumed the worst. The bad has arrived in our relationship. This morning his beautiful monster soul told me that he was killing himself while I was talking to him. I asked how, and in rough English he said drugs. As with Dahvie in one of my first posts, he is the 3rd LGBT boy to mention suicide like this. And for superstitious, 3rd time's the charm o.o Of course I freaked out and (in French with translator) I told him how great and how strong he can be and that I love and I'd miss him so much. Alex was counting down the minutes and seconds, and my heart dropped. Then he said "IT WAS A JOKE" but it really wasn't because he kept saying he was shit and a bitch and by that point, I couldn't finish breakfast. So I said more advice and love in French, however he stopped all of a sudden and it ended. We have been long-distance since September. I don't care if these things^ don't work out. I just want my baby to know he'll be strong and brave and empower himself to be his best and most beautiful. I think you should really check him out, he is the prettiest boy I've ever laid eyes upon. Please pray, wish and hope that he is indeed alive. And if you're a French monster, keep fighting for marriage equality and gay rights! PAWSUP FOR ALEX BENS <3