Hi fellow Little Monsters! It's been 6 weeks since I've started my Freshman year in college. There are many gay people here and I always dreamed to go to college to finally be happy and feel free. Today is National Coming Out Day and I'm proud to be out to everyone around me (besides my family). This is both a good and bad thing. First week of college, I had my heart broken by a boy that lived in the dorms right in front of my building (dorm). He tricked me and broke my heart. I tried to get over him as he was already in a relationship with another guy. 2 days ago I thought that I have found the door that opens when all others close. I decided to go on a date with a boy that thought that I'm cute and was looking for a relationship with me. Unfortunately, he thought that we didn't have the "spark". At least this time he was nicer and wasn't as mean as the other one. He told me that he hopes that I find a great guy but at this point I feel like it's impossible. He was smart, dedicated, nice, and very cute. Thanks to my friends I had the courage to talk to him and discuss how I have fallen in love with him after he kissed me on our first date. It's weird to fall in love with someone after only one day, but I believe in impossible things to happen. So since yesterday I've been having mood swings and I've been hating college cause I'm just being hurt and there are lots of things that I have to do for my classes. There's no time to relax and waste my time to have fun and forget about him. He said hi to me so casually today because I agreed to become just friends. I'm writing this because minutes ago I started crying in the library of my college (mood swings that I mentioned earlier) and as I was crying I saw the Gaga LennonOno acceptance speech. I cried non-stop and then I felt much better. So I thought that this is going to work. I went ahead and watched Lady Gaga's inspirational speeches and the first one was the Monster Ball Speech about accepting yourself. I cried even more and now I feel much braver. I wanted to thank you my fellow Little Monsters and especially Lady Gaga because of the huge impact that you've had and you keep having on me. Love you all and thanks for sharing Gaga's stuff for people like me who get sad by things like this. I know that my problem is small compared many other peoples' but I'm thankful to have Lady Gaga and all you guys to make me feel better in this world. I've seen people drinking and smoking here as soon as they're hurt but I don't and I never will cause you and Lady Gaga are my alcohol and drugs. Love you all. We're all one family. Breed Compassion