When you don't like who you are, sometimes it's easier to focus on what you can control in your world, rather than what you cannot. Since I was 13, I have obsessed and felt guilty over food and what i eat. I tried to control my diet, and my appearance, because I could not change my sexuality. I still feel like the odd person out, I am now 26, I still feel like my sexuality disappoints everyone around me, that I don't belong anywhere, but I am trying to love myself inside and out.