Hey little monsters, I am Rosy, I used to be your average kid happy, no worries, normal. But then my parents divorced… My dad used to beat mom, and my sis… He tried to drown me once, my sister saved me. So we went living with mom and her friend. They really loved us. But things changed for good… My sis and I got hit, and mom tried to tear us apart. We were not allowed to speak to each other. We were slaves and even had to clean the roof once… My sis felt through it… At school I didn’t talk much… I had good grades, but for mom I was nothing… I got depressed… It hurt so bad, I hated myself. I felt a bad kid, If my parents couldn’t love me it had to be my fault. I started to cut myself. It was a way to cope with my emotional pain… Everyday I wished I could die. Thanks to some friends I found the strength to run away. I got adopted by a couple. I was quiet, shy, scared… They taught me to enjoy life. I felt blessed they loved me… Too much… At first I thought it was normal, if I wanted to be happy there were things I had to do… They sexually abused me for years… I tried to kill myself, I was hospitalised and went to the psychiatry to get helped. I was diagnosed BPD, Borderline Personality Disorder. I still loved my adoptive parents so I kept seeing them… I wanted parents so bad… I got hit bad and abused by my adoptive parents… I couldn’t do it anymore… I was dying At the end of April this year I tried to kill myself,… but I got reanimated. A couple weeks later my sis came to visit me in the hospital. I never told her what happened… I felt bad, I love her sooo much… She was so scared to see me this way. I ended my therapy, Things do get better, but I’m still not 100% happy, I’m often deeply depressed, I try not to cut myself but sometimes it’s hard, but last time was in march. I don’t love myself, I don’t know who I am… I try to stay strong but I’m not good at it… But I try This is me broken, messy, misunderstood, BUT FOREVER STRONG The reason I tell you this is cause it does get better, and I want to do something with my life. I’d like to devote my life to help little monsters in pain. To help them when they feel alone and have nobody to talk to. I’m here I can listen and I can try to help you get through difficult times when you are having difficulties not to cut yourself. We can try to find ways to cope with pain in a positive way, I can give you tips. If you ever want to talk to somebody, I am often on littlemonsters.com and I am here for you!!! I am not perfect but I can help! I was born this way Baby!!! paws up!!! Rosy