You don't have to reply or anything, but I just needed to share this with someone, other than my friends, Idon't think they understand. For a while now my mom has been emotionally abusing me, & she just doesn't evenrealize she's doing it. She was an ex-alcoholic & now she's heading down the same path once again, she doesn't even realize that it's hurting me so much. I'm just so frustrated w her & I get so angry, so I can't help buttake it out on her again. I'm now so depressed, she doesn't realize why I get mad at her. Nothing goes through her head anymore. I'm just so scared to just be in this house, she randomly pushed me & called me a fucking asshole, & a bitch, We almost got into a car crash because she was driving drunk. I can't take this any longer but maybe I won't have to, she thinks I'm mental but who is she to tell me I'm mental while she starts drinking @ 12 noon. She wants me to see a physiatrist cause she thinks I'm so fucked up. She says if I don't 'get better' in 6 months she will send me to live with my dad cause she can't take this for 4 more years. I can NOT live w my dad, (for reasons I'd rather not mention.) I'm so done, I don't exactly want to die, I just wish I was 18 already so I could get out of here, and away from my dad. :( My family wasn't messed up like 10 years ago, how did it turn into this?? :( Sorry for ranting, but whoever read thanks for listening xx