When I was 12 my oldest brother passed away, and I started a strange coping technique I've been bothered about by my family and some other people. I created an imaginary persona named Derek, who is made to understand almost everything. Most people consider it really weird and bothered me about it, but the fact is he is my cope.Lady GaGa thought says we are born this way, and we shouldn't be ashamed of ourselves. It's helped me understand that just because I'm different, doesn't mean it's bad.