
Free Bi†ch @audifan8595
Scared to go back to school. :(
Scared to go back to school. :(
Hey guys I'm writing this on this website because we are a family and I know you'll all be nice.
I'm starting my senior year and I couldn't be dreading it more! I'm already stressed out by college and stuff because all my top-choice schools are very selective and I have anxiety about making phone calls, which can really hinder me since I'm gonna have to be calling the schools I'm applying to.
Also, I'm the captain of my cross country team but my coach doesn't seem to have any faith in me whatsoever. He acts like I only get to be captain because I'm the oldest. He constantly makes digs about my supposed lack of responsibility and is always poking fun at me. He's not the only one either. Kids who are younger are always rude to me, kids my age treat me like I'm not worthy of their respect, older kids look down on me, and even adults, even my teachers, target me. I don't understand!
This is really stressing me out. I cried like all night last night and I already have major issues, so like I don't get why people feel the need to step all over me. I don't get what makes me such a target. I'm smart and outspoken, it's not like I lay down and take it like a shy victim would.
But now I can't even be excited that I'm getting out of this place soon, because I'm so hung up on the torture that is school for me. I don't know what to do, I already have a therapist and I frequently spend time in the guidance office when I'm at school. I feel really helpless and anxious. :(