For those of you who have learned to know me on this platform, you know that I am not here to celebrate Gaga's music dressing up as her or singing and dancing to her songs. I like to analyze things and I like to make music part of my life. I listen to it, I dissect it, take what I need and then inject it into my soul and life. This is just how I like to do things and everyone has their own way, maybe Gaga won't notice me because I don't stand out in the crowd, I don't feel like expressing myself this way, but I have a very deep and huge world inside of me waiting to be discovered. I am making this disclaimer, because some of you may not like what I write or find it boring because it is just not how you like to see things, so if you don't like it, just move on, I know this is not for you. As Gaga says, "Not everyone will like what you do and we have to accept it." Having said this, here is what I think about MAYHEM. "Music, is such a powerful force and it gives people life" She has been true to herself and even though she lost herself sometimes, now she can finally experience it all. The core of who she is has always been there and it never changed. Music and art are so important to her, and those things never left her and now she can share it with us. In all of her previous albums she said how music was always bringing her back to life, for different reasons, but that feeling, vibe, never changed. I feel that now she has found a way to connect all of the parts of her life and be happy with the people she loves, this is what is different about MAYHEM. The Fame had a vibe and it was her way to express the part of her that wanted to be someone in this world. The Fame Monster had another vibe and it was her way to express all the fears she had becoming the fame and Lady Gaga. Born This Way had another vibe and it her way to say to the world, this is me, the whole me. ARTPOP was a completely different thing, it was saying to the world: I am not going to be inside the box you want me to be, this is my concept and the way I feel music and I don't care about what you want from me. Joanne had a different vibe and it was maybe that part of her that was still dreaming about fame but at the same time wanted to keep it for her and for her loved ones. It felt us if a young girl how loved music was singing to her dad. Chromatica had another sound and it felt as if she was going back to those fears she had in The Fame Monster and grew up, embraced those fears and lived through it. MAYHEM feels like the combination of all of these parts. Music was always there for her and helped her get back to herself, just in different ways and now they are all combined and she can enjoy them all. To me her albums have always gave something, they helped me going through my life and also finding myself again each time. I still can't explain how music can feel so personal even if it is written by someone else. I like to think about it in terms of emotions and vibes. Even though we didn't go through the same things, if someone puts everything inside a song, every emotion he/she/they felt, then the people who listen to it will feel it too if they lived those emotions. It is the same thing that happens when you meet someone for the first time and you feel a certain way, you feel a vibe from that person and you know if you are going to like that person or not. The same thing happens with music, you feel the vibe and you know if you are going to like it or not. I am always tuned in her vibes and I feel her feelings in the music. Feeling this I can also feel my feelings and understand it better. Maybe this is why music is so healing. I think that the reason why we are loving MAYHEM so much is because we feel what is behind it and the joy of creating it, the joy of being able to totally embrace your life. It gives us courage again and it reminds us that we can love who we are, what we do and embrace it all. This courage was what made us believe in Gaga when she first started and now it feels the same again. She is not afraid to be herself even now, after a decade. As I said at the beginning she stayed true to herself and we can be true to ourselves because she showed us that it is possible even when you lose yourself in life. Overall, this album feels as if she found a new way to be an artist and a celebrity at the same time. however, sometimes I wonder: wouldn't it be easier to just have normal conversations with people like this one? Wouldn't it be better also for her to just have that community she always refers to? I feel as if fame is really isolating and it makes you be perceived as someone and something you are not, so why would you need to keep doing it? A lot of people, myself included, wouldn't really be able to talk to her and listen to her music if she wasn't famous, but maybe it would have been easier for her. Also, when you are this famous, I guess people approach you just because they want things from you and that must be difficult. The songs Perfect Celebrity and The Beast reflect this perfectly. Powerful songs, that talk about the duality of her life and of how she feels. Two sides of the same coin, she struggles, but somehow she just has to do it, for us, but ultimately for her and at the same time she needs someone to see this struggle and embrace it with her. "Turn on the music, turn off the lights, I wanna feel The Beast inside" she wants to be real and she needs someone that feels it, understands it and I feel that she really found it. I am really thankful because I can listen to her music and I really love the fact that she has gravity in her life now and that this reflects in this album, but at the same time I wonder how she feels being constantly in front of the image she helped created and not being able to just be and do you. As I said at the beginning, I always love to take something with me when I listen to music. From MAYHEM I will definitely take away the joy of finding your roots again. Finding love in doing what you like again, staying true to yourself and facing the demons that sometimes take you away this happines.