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ϟ†∆Gaga Saves Lives∆†ϟ @gagasaveslives

Giving Up On Trying: Response to all the wonderful Monster's

Everyone has been so kind. Thank you! I was in a bad place last night brought on by stress and the other demons that can haunt us in life. I was at a breaking point and I almost gave up. But after I got off the computer I sat down at my piano and wrote a song. It was a very powerful moment for me because I am maybe an intermediate player at best. Well this was the first time in my music history that I felt my emotions pouring out of me and into the music I was playing. I ended up with a very nice piece. I was shocked at first that I could do this but but then I realized something... If you live your life with a pure heart, one that is full of love and compassion, art and creativity, kindness and empathy it will eventually come out of you in some sort of way that helps not only yourself become stronger but it will inspire others to fight for themselves as well. This is what Gaga has done for me. I also want to make it clear that I don't dislike the site or any Monster's on it. A lot of them that I have met on here are amazing, wonderful, beautiful, artistic, loving, kind, compassionate, etc; but there are also a lot that are not so nice here on LM.com, that bully and belittle, that say or post things that fly in the face of Gaga's message, and so on. I'm also not on here just for likes and fans i just know that these 2 things influence wether or not I can ever get something I write to or make for Gaga to her. I just wish they could figure a way so that the same Monster's are not getting into the chat with her over ad over again while others who cannot live on LM.com waiting for her to come online can get a fair chance. I have seen some Monster's saying things like "I have been in chat with Gaga six times!" and its probably because they have the time to spend waiting. I'm so busy I get limited time on here. I guess I'm just saying that I wish things could work a lot more "fairly" on this site, but life isn't fair. I know this. I do want to make one more thing clear. My suicidal feelings last night do not stem from my feelings about LM.com or not getting to chat with Gaga. I'm not obsessed. They came from my "daddy issues" and my self loathing that parental neglect has help reinforce. I apologize for scaring anyone and I'm sorry for thinking of hurting myself when I have a place to come and reach out. Thank you all so very much for your kindness and compassion. What would I do without my fellow Monsters? ~Jenn(aka LuX)

Maribel Pantoja@maribelpdesign 13y

I don't visit LM often and can't be here for long. I just look for interesting discussions and check up on my following friends. I'm sorry to hear you weren't feeling so well but am glad to see you were able to de-stress in such a creative and healthy way. Would love to hear your piano piece.

NDEJDERUBVLAUI@anjeyjean 13y

Sarah Carolann McCleskey@sarahmccleskey1 13y

Lady Gaga's music and the meaning of her lyrics have given me the will to go on with the support of my husband. Many people have the same feeling and thoughts when we don't know where to turn, what to do, who to trust, is life worth loving? We must support each other in a kind, caring, supportive postings. We all have had times that we need some positive people to help us get up and try to make another day. Never feel that you are alone. There are millions of us that only want the best for this web site. However, there are those agitators, bullies, etc. that we have to ignore and flag for the coders. Please, your live is worth so much. You never know what lies ahead of you. In fact, I'm been a little down lat week. I usually post everyday. I just got depressed by family problems-ill parent a d geedy siblings. My husband and I get tired, but we have no remorse, only love for the terminal parent. I am back on postings again. I missed everyone. Keep us in your prayers.

b@bohdii 13y

This might be a big ask - but can we hear you play piano?

ϟ†∆Gaga Saves Lives∆†ϟ@gagasaveslives 13y

I just want to reiterate one more time that last nights post did not stem from not getting to chat with Gaga or because of "likes" and fans"....that would be ridiculous! If anyone wants to take what I wrote completely out of context and assume that I was "attention seeking" or just trying to get Gaga's attention...WRONG! I am trying to get off methadone after a battle with opiate addiction, my mother has a year at best with her heart issue, and my dad has given up on his biological kids because his son is gay and his daughter is bi. I have not a single friend anymore because I had to cut all ties when I started my recovery. And the list could go on and on..so yeah I had every reason to be sad last night but it had nothing to do with LM.com. Yeah I made clear my disappointment with certain aspects of what goes on here but I am a 31 year old independant woman and I would never be so selfish as talk self harm just to get something I want. the idea is atrocious to me. I also have a lot of good things in my ife that I focus on everyday. My issues last night came out because they had built up inside me. It won't happen again for a good while...I hope. Thank you again to all the kind and compassionate Monster's on and your wonderful words of care and guidance = D

I want to reiterate one thing...again my depression last night did in now way setm I just want to reiterate one more time that last nights post did not stem from not getting to chat with Gaga or because of "likes" and fans"....that would be ridiculous! If anyone wants to take what I wrote completely out of context and assume that I was "attention seeking" or just trying to get Gaga's attention...WRONG! I am trying to get off methadone after a battle with opiate addiction, my mother has a year at best with her heart issue, and my dad has given up on his biological kids because his son is gay and his daughter is bi. I have not a single friend anymore because I had to cut all ties when I started my recovery. And the list could go on and on..so yeah I had every reason to be sad last night but it had nothing to do with LM.com. Yeah I made clear my disappointment with certain aspects of what goes on here but I am a 31 year old independant woman and I would never be so selfish as talk self harm just to get something I want. the idea is atrocious to me. I also have a lot of good things in my ife that I focus on everyday. My issues last night came out because they had built up inside me. It won't happen again for a good while...I hope. Thank you again to all the kind and compassionate Monster's on and your wonderful words of care and guidance = D

Manu@manut 13y

I'm really glad to hear that. Music is a great way to express your feelnings. I know there are some bullies and agitator on this site and sometimes it feels like a popularity contest but that's inevitable. That's one big disadvantage of social media. But like you know most people here are very kind and supportive and are always there to help you but our abilities are also limited. If you ever feel like that again consider talking to a profesional because sometimes we just feel helpless and don't know what to say or do. You are such a compassionate, creative, kind soul and people here really care for you and don't want you to hurt yourself. You will always have friends here.

Melanie Holmes@melanieholmes 13y

Hey, it's good to see you. I really felt for you after reading your previous post. You are so passionate and so expressive - these are admirable traits in a person. The fact that you went to your piano and were able to channel your angst into a piece of music is an amazing ability and is also an exercise in self-care. Proud of you girl :-)

Hey, it's good to see you. I really felt for you after reading your previous post. You are so passionate and so expressive - these are admirable traits in a person. The fact that you went to your piano and were able to channel your angst into a piece of musical is an amazing ability and is also an exercise in self-care. Proud of you girl :-)