I give up. I thought maybe here I would find someone that understood but instead I feel like it’s a big contest here just like everywhere else. Who posts the best pic. Who has the most fans. Who has so much time on their hands they can sit hours upon hours waiting for Gaga to come online so they can talk with her in chat for the fourth or fifth time while those of us that can never afford to even dream of seeing her live or follow her or spend ten plus hours online would give anything to just say thank you to her once…but they get more and more discouraged because they can never get their chance. LM.com is such a great idea but it seems like unless you can devote the majority of your life on here you will never get into a chat with Gaga which is very unfair to the Monsters that have life and can’t sit online all day. This woman saved my life and I thought that LM.com would help me connect with her so that I could a least get it across to her that with out her in my life I would probably be dead of heroin overdose. Others that are going through the hard times that are life would like to express their gratitude as well, but we NEVER can get in a chat with her. I also was under the impression that I would meet kind, sympathetic, empathetic, compassionate, friendly, loving, peaceful people on here but instead it’s just “Kill Madonna” and “Minaj is Fat” and “Perry is a copycat”…bitch, bitch, whine moan whine…come on we are supposed to be spreading a message of peace and kindness. When you make these posts insulting other artist you just make Monsters look bad. Anyway I thought I’d find a community of love and support and instead I found another place where your judged. Where people are recognized not by what they post but how many people they now that will “like” their post. I have posted a pic only to see the same pic posted by one of the names that frequents the “Hot Page” post he same pic and generate 1028 “likes” to my 10 “likes” …I have felt worse about myself since joining this page because of the hypocrisy that rules LM.com We are supposed to be kind but instead we are made fun of because so many Monster’s fly in the face of what Mother monster is trying to spread. Anyway back to a Monster that is holding a knife to her wrist…why should I keep trying. I have no friends here in the city from hell…all my true friends are thousands of miles away. My dad hates me, the world thinks I’m a waste because I used to be an addict. I don’t have enough money to feed myself . The only thing I had was Gaga and the Monsters but I have felt so unaccepted here and therefore my last hope of finding someone who cares has turned into a unachievable task…I have decided pills and the music that understands me better than anyone in my life is the best way too fade out. Just if anyone gets this note and I’m not around to pass it on…Gaga must know that she gave me some of the strongest years of my life, I just couldn’t keep going…life is too expensive and I refuse to starve. I love all the Monsters that actually paid attention to me. You will be with me now and in my next life. I don’t see myself ever being seen as anything other that an addict. I don’t see my family ever not being ashamed of me. I will never see Gaga live because I am too poor. I’m just really ready to take as many anti anxieties that I don’t wake up and feel the dissapointment of being so poor and so lonely…Those of you that have acknowledged my existence…thank you. Peace LOVE and one loser less… ~ She that has no purpose…