There are so many joys in life that you need to experience :) A cold winter, a campfire, a flower, a ferris wheel... all of these simple little things are the wonders in the world, and they can help you find happiness and joy in life :) there is never a reason to take your own life... ever! Especially for this beautiful human being <3 Be strong and let it out :) BIG MONSTER HUGZZZZ and lots of love :)