The past two days I've not been able to get online.Today I woke up and minecrafted, watched some adventure time and now want food. I'm not going to eat though I had two bowls of cottage pie at about 1ish although it is 7pm now I'm refusing to eat as I want to be thin again. I feel trapped and unable to escape from these boring dull days. I lack motivation to create, to build and to inspire. I feel sick, sick of everything and just want to drown my sorrows in a bottle of vodka as is my life. I want to be a star and I feel like a rock, smashed into dust. Nothing, worthless and unspoken.