I don't know how to explain what I feel. Or where to start but I guess it's just enough to express what we feel very simply. I was just a little girl the first time I heard Gaga on TV. I couldn't describe what I was seeing, I was just speechless. Bad Romance, which today everyone calls a masterpiece, made me feel what no other song could ever make me feel. And despite my young age, I think I had finally understood the definition of the word "Legendary". I thought I was ordinary when I was young...I thought I would never find my place one day and never have confidence in myself. I heard the no, the heavy remarks of my comrades, I had the impression of never being worth enough in the eyes of others. I called myself weak! Even if I have gone through hardships like many people and yet I have always continued to fight, I have never judged myself at my fair value. I was so naive, a lot of people did everything to push me to the limit so that I cracked. I tried to make my way, to find my identity, but I could never figure out who I really was. I was drawing, drawing was the only thing that made me understand that I was not just incapable...I didn't show my emotions and my feelings, I could cry but I never really said why...There are a few years, tears were for me a sign of weakness. I externalized all my hatred, my anger and my sadness through my passion which was drawing. Then I grew up... When I was 12, I experienced what everyone around the world has experienced, that is to say the Covid pandemic... Despite everything, I adapted and had grown enormously in maturity. But that didn't change, I always thought of myself that way and had always felt a visceral hatred towards my body…I found myself ugly, thin and horrible. During the whole period of my life, I have always been surrounded…Not always by the right people but I have never found myself really alone…Even if I felt it inside…You know that heavy feeling of loneliness that you feel while everyone is talking to you, thanking you etc… Quarantine was arguably one of the worst times of my life…I was overwhelmed with work, saw no one and spent my day dozing, making sure not to miss any work assignments. I was constantly stressed and even though I hadn't realized it before, I had anxiety. I refused to see that, I probably perceived that as a shame so I never talked about it until today... Towards the end of 2020, I started listening to Bad Romance again, it was I hadn't heard it for years…And despite everything, I could feel exactly the same feeling that I felt when I was little…a fear experienced in expressing in artistic form. It was from that moment that I understood that what Gaga wanted to portray was the same as what I felt inside. Chromatica was probably the album that saved my life… By dint of working and having to constantly manage this anxiety called performance anxiety, I had experienced depression for a fairly short period. So many times when I wanted to get it over with, I listened to Replay and Rain On Me thinking to myself if it was all worth it? I made up my mind and thanks to my parents and the strength of Gaga's music I was able to get out of this situation, this time stronger. I realized that despite the difficulties I had gone through and the injuries that slowed me down on a daily basis, there was actually a real strength hidden within me. For the first time, I felt like I was worth something and told myself that I didn't need anyone to believe in me. And even if today I still fight against this anxiety, I know that I have enough courage to assume myself and to continue to realize my dream of becoming a graphic designer. So to this day I wanted to honor a wonderful person who has gone through hardships but who never gave up, Gaga: Several times in my life, when I felt bad or was sad, I listened to your music and with the sweetness of your voice as well as the sincerity and authenticity of your texts, I managed to smile again. Your tireless investment, your tenacity and your audacity as a person encouraged me and inspired me to continue to live my passion despite what others may think. You are such a brave, beautiful, talented, creative, kind person and your team is so talented and inventive. You have been a great support for many people, whether they are different, part of the LGBTQ+ community, have been bullied or have suffered traumatic experiences… You show kindness and love towards others. You always get up and move forward despite the hardships you may go through. You helped me to have confidence in myself, to accept myself and to assert myself more, so I am extremely grateful. Don't listen to others, never give up, keep doing what you love, be free and always go all out. I know you've started filming Joker 2 so I wish you good luck, you're going to rock it! Happy birthday ! If you had the courage to read everything I wrote, I am extremely grateful to you and I take this opportunity to thank all the Little Monsters who support me and bring me a lot of love! I love you all! ❤️