Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. ~Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
i feel the same way...My mom used to be like that and she told me that she is feeling better, because everyday she would wake up early and write 10 blessings she has. Let me tell ya', she DOES look like she feels better about herself. I believe that you and I and all little monsters should try that.