Hi little monsters. I have been feeling really stressed out, more than usual. There is a lot going on with my family and losing our home. I am afraid of losing my pets and other things. As you may know, change is of course difficult for anyone, but when you have Aspergers or are on the spectrum, it's kind of like the whole world falling a part when it is such a big change. My mind feels like a big fish bowl with a bunch of small fish fighting to the death, heart hurts, and I feel like stimming till I explode, just feeling physically ill as of late. I don't know how to cope and I find myself wishing my whole family just would get in an accident and we would disappear. I don't want bad things, I wish things would be better for all of us but I keep fleeting to give up. I feel so hopeless and it feels like I have no friends or people to talk about it with. Sometimes I wish I wasn't Autistic because it would be easier, and sometimes I am afraid it would change me too much.