

Tim @timon483
I need your support, monsters...
I need your support, monsters...
I never thought that I would make this kind of a post and will post in the group for #BullyingSupport . But it has happened. I'm that kind of a human who will never start a fight, who will never say a negative word to others, who stays always polite, kind and never loses his temper no matter what.
I can say that I am gay, but I have never had problems with it, because I never came out, and nobody just knows it. And I never showed it.
Since I changed my haircut already two difficult situations have occured.
1: My friend and I were in the train. ANd we went to the train-restaurant. There we were just sitting, laughing and drinking beer. At the opposite table sat a man. He started to ask us rude questions, asked whether we served in the army (you know, in Russia some people think that serving in the army means a super success to them.), and he said that we just look like two faggots. He was drunk, and the servants had told him to go out. So nothing serious had happened, without great fight, but still
2: I was in the bus with my best friend's girlfriend. We've visited him. We were just going home. Then on the busstop one girl and two guys, drunk as hell, have come in. And started to attract our attention, making a kind of clues that I'm a faggot because of my haircut. Nothing bad happened, but we have lost our happy mood.
In such situations I become really sad and worried. I have never fought, and I don't know how to do. I don't know how to regulate such conflicts. And what if they have touched the girl I was with, what should I do? There were 2 men, and me alone. Of course I'm sure that the other guys in the bus would help me, but I just don't know.
This haircut has already brought me some problems. Why? Why do they start to judge people by appearance? And it's quite an average haircut, just a little bit stylish. Why? I don't want to live in this country anymore! WHy should I have fear being 22 years old that somebody can call me names or even hurt me physically because of my haircut?
I will never understand it. The main thing that makes me happier is that I'm waiting for my visa to Germany, to this tolerant European country. I'm gonna live there at least for one year. And I will do everything possible in order not to come back to this country and this city.
I just don't know why people are so stupid, intolerant, rude, aggressive and evil in this counrty.
A piece of advice would really help.
P.S. Russia is not a country. It's bullshit. I hate those people arround me.